 How many of you think speaking publicly is kind of scary? Alright. How many of you believe that you would show up more if only it’s fun and easy? Great! Let me tell you why I choose to show up today, with my story on Visibility.
Growing up, my parents liked to say that I am the gutsy little one. And I’ve proved them right. When I was this little, I dared to climb up an open-air Water Tower and shout out into the wind; My name was always on the school’s scholarship boards, and I literally danced and emceed my way through Medicak School. Being in the spotlight was easy, until it was not. 20 years ago, a fellowship opportunity brought me to Houston. When I first saw the intersections of Beltway 8 and I-45, I couldn’t contain my excitement “The Road...is...BIG!” It was then, reality hit. I need to report to work the next day and I couldn’t complete a simple sentence without struggling to find the right words. Suddenly, a surge of uncomfortable sensation traveled through my spine. What have I got myself into? My need for survival was kicked into high gear. The following day, at the round table of my very own welcome luncheon, the only word I said was “No”. The question I was asked? “Would you like to say something to us?” I made up some lame excuses to myself after. No big deal, just a little more practice you will be ok. And I cried through the night. You could probably guess what happened next. I worked hard, studied hard, played safe, and hid from spotlights. I even changed my name to fit in! Over the years I’ve accomplished a lot. I have a great career track record, I ran non-profit boards, I bought business and properties, but something still seemed off. Regardless how many credentials are after my name, I knew I wasn’t showing up fully as who I was, the gutsy little china girl. What I found out eventually, was that, the very sensation that made me felt so small on that “big” Highway, the very same fear led me to that “No” during the luncheon has also been running the themes of my life. It’s called the Fear of not being Good Enough. It’s no longer a language matter, do you see? The coping mechanism has become the very problem to overcome. I was practicing and getting ready, while the show was already ON! How could I be the leading lady of my own life if I continue to hide behind the curtains that lead to the arena? In 2012, after I graduated from my second master’s degree, I finally decided to face the fear head on. I still vividly remember how I’d sheepishly stepped into the middle of a Yoga Teacher’s Circle, and said “I am loved, I am good enough” over and over until my body starts to believe it. I finally felt liberated from that fear of not being good enough, and stepped into my own power. Lots of inner work and guidances from some of the world’s best teachers and coaches later, I can’t help but wonder how many other career women, minorities, immigrants, aspired entrepreneurs like me are living their white labeled life and not showing up fully because of fear and self-limiting believes. What if, they have the know-hows and opportunities like I received? I’ve found my calling. Ladies and gents, my name is Angela Mestre, I endorse Visibility through Storytelling and I encourage Personal Branding through Collective Growth. My Vision 2020 is to create stages and hold space for stories and deeper conversations, so that more people can get their long overdue chances to be seen, heard, valued, and appreciated for their extraordinary life. Because of this vision, suddenly, visibility became a game that I am willing to play full out again:
You see, I am walking my talk and evolve along with the people I support. Through my brave explorations I’ve met so many powerful leaders and community builders. I can tell you this much, opportunity is everywhere, if only you are willing to show up and step into the spot light! Forget about good enough, just like that little super Mario, you can replay over and over until you get through to the next stage! Visibility is just like that. Let’s have a gutsy play, and score BIG! Angela Mestre Studio Owner, Somatic Educator, Resiliency Coach and Goddesspreneur Connect with me further via Facebook Group @Houston Heart-Centered Entrepreneurs Join my upcoming masterclasses via entrepreneurmastery.eventbrite.com |
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